Today's Sunday, April 03, 2005 !!

 
sunday!

it's sunday already! hahaha. a wk has passed.. eEekkz

last nite was slping and ard 3 plus when nina called. asked me to leak out of my home fer a spin. haha.. lEAKEd. :X but was too tired plus with contrain by my parents. unable to leaked out. sry budds. probably nx time. hee...

sometimes i wonder izzit me being too sensitive. i dun like, anyone, to indirectly insult wat i feel. probably am being a bit strict and hard on this. but this is me. feelings hurt is much worst than insulting who i am. sometimes u asked me things which u noe wat the ans is. u always hope to expect it's e opposite of wat u expect me to say. sorry. i can't. coz i didn't want to give chances. it will hurt u more. eventually, u might think that chances r on ur side. if you wan me to at least say the opposite of e expected ans, won't you think that u are selfish? am not pin pointing u. u haven't thought of my feelings do u? i noe probably somehow u fell to deep, or izzit i pulled you. till this time, u might already thought that i'm kinda cold and harsh 2wards you. it's not tat i wan, i'm just afraid that you r pulling urself down deeper, making me feel guiltier fer unknown reasons.

apologies fer my behavior and attitude towards you. somehow i felt i need to take a step back.

i thought maybe talking things out would be better. but, in fact it's either coz of e agitated me, or u who's trying to run away. suddenly offline u can go, b4 i can say more. i dun feel angered becoz u went off like this, i felt tired instead. tired to talk to. maybe i should not haf talked things out, if e outcome is like this. i though it would be better in a way. but it's not. since u wouldn't like to talk things out. i leave it up to u.

marc say something like this, "if u like her, wan her be happy. make her happy." i believe as long as some1 i like and love is happy, even though he not my bf, i will be happy. seeing someone whom i liked alot, happy in such a way, i will be too. though i believe it hurts so much. but this is wat i feel. and i felt this way b4...

probably it's just a negative me, who reprimands myself always, thinking it's becoz of me which happens. i will nv be happy. i am always trying to be fair and square to situations. it's always hard for me. ppl say i'm too soft, unseen to situation, didn't open a wide mind etc. my weakness?

just another day

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- posted by unembellished maine @ 4:33 PM

Today's Sunday, April 03, 2005 !!

 
sunday!

it's sunday already! hahaha. a wk has passed.. eEekkz

last nite was slping and ard 3 plus when nina called. asked me to leak out of my home fer a spin. haha.. lEAKEd. :X but was too tired plus with contrain by my parents. unable to leaked out. sry budds. probably nx time. hee...

sometimes i wonder izzit me being too sensitive. i dun like, anyone, to indirectly insult wat i feel. probably am being a bit strict and hard on this. but this is me. feelings hurt is much worst than insulting who i am. sometimes u asked me things which u noe wat the ans is. u always hope to expect it's e opposite of wat u expect me to say. sorry. i can't. coz i didn't want to give chances. it will hurt u more. eventually, u might think that chances r on ur side. if you wan me to at least say the opposite of e expected ans, won't you think that u are selfish? am not pin pointing u. u haven't thought of my feelings do u? i noe probably somehow u fell to deep, or izzit i pulled you. till this time, u might already thought that i'm kinda cold and harsh 2wards you. it's not tat i wan, i'm just afraid that you r pulling urself down deeper, making me feel guiltier fer unknown reasons.

apologies fer my behavior and attitude towards you. somehow i felt i need to take a step back.

i thought maybe talking things out would be better. but, in fact it's either coz of e agitated me, or u who's trying to run away. suddenly offline u can go, b4 i can say more. i dun feel angered becoz u went off like this, i felt tired instead. tired to talk to. maybe i should not haf talked things out, if e outcome is like this. i though it would be better in a way. but it's not. since u wouldn't like to talk things out. i leave it up to u.

marc say something like this, "if u like her, wan her be happy. make her happy." i believe as long as some1 i like and love is happy, even though he not my bf, i will be happy. seeing someone whom i liked alot, happy in such a way, i will be too. though i believe it hurts so much. but this is wat i feel. and i felt this way b4...

probably it's just a negative me, who reprimands myself always, thinking it's becoz of me which happens. i will nv be happy. i am always trying to be fair and square to situations. it's always hard for me. ppl say i'm too soft, unseen to situation, didn't open a wide mind etc. my weakness?

just another day

...
- posted by unembellished maine @ 4:33 PM